Jack

Earlier this evening, I was trying to jack up. This is a taboo topic where I come from, but I do know some women, from where I was from, who are open about it and I was actually just glad that they do the same. Thing is, women do this. Maybe same thing why men does it, before you start a day or just before going to sleep to make one sleepy. I used to do it if I toss and turn after being in bed in an hour and cant get sleep. It works for me. And I'd usually visualise a guy going down on me while I do it. For me it usually intensifies it. Thing is, I usually visualise with the last person who did it to me. Which is now my ex. And while I was doing it, I just cant seem to reach that point where I would be just ecstatic. For once I can't. Even when I began to think of the men who did it to me... it was a friggin failure. Maybe I'm learning my lesson not to exactly rely on men even for my simplest pleasure.